‘Him’ being a guy whose identity doesn’t really matter for the story. The fact that I met him for the first time does.
Then the next day, he sees me arrive at the doorstep with my new beautiful coloring book; my newfound treasure that was a graduation gift. I got it this week and have been looking for a moment to start in it ever since.
As I draw, I talk about how happy the rainbow-coloured pencils make me feel.
I suddenly have a moment of self-reflection and think to myself: this weekend must make me look like a small kid to this guy. Mickey mouse pancakes, cartoons, coloring books…
Yet I can do science and build intelligent stuff and occasionally say interesting things once you get to know me. Really…
But then I realize that coming across as a kid might not have anything to do with the series of events that together form this weekend; yet moreover with who I am. Not every weekend looks like this one, but this weekend has been filled with silly little things that make me happy. I embrace my inner child and I love to play. And every now and then I get self-conscious about it and I question myself because in my inner monologue comparisons I always end up being ‘the weird one’. But honestly, I think it is a wonderful thing to be able to enjoy the world as if you were a child. To ask questions about everything because you want to discover and are eager to learn. To do things you love without hesitation. To find joy in the small things and create your own happy place by filling your life with these small joys. To calmly fill in the spaces between the lines with beautiful colors while pondering about life’s big questions and small daily events.
And at that moment I stop caring about what he could or would or should think of me. And I continue drawing. In my new coloring book. With music. And a smile.
Life is good.
sometimes that's what we need to do. just keep drawing.
ReplyDelete(i wish i could draw)
(anyone can draw, just have fun and practice! or not ;) haha and do something else that is fun - no pressure)
Deletedrawing's my favorite thing too!
ReplyDeleteyesterday I sketched 6 illustrations at work.. haha I know, I know, I should have been working but I just had to get some things off my mind, and drawings are my way of doing so.. it's an escape
great post..take care!
I definitely understand. Sometimes you just need to clear your head a bit and be creative before you can tackle your 'real problems'.
DeleteI love this! I worked at a daycare a few years ago, and I swear I liked coloring more than the kids did!
ReplyDeleteWhaha I can really relate to that
Deletethat indeed sounds like a good life:-) i wish i had a nice colouring book, but i only have my old children's ones back at my mum's! x
ReplyDeleteAhh, maybe you should get one too! I only thought about colouring again like a week ago and my friend was so kind to notice that and get me a present; but sometimes we can give ourselves a nice present as well ;)
DeleteI like the way you illustrated the whole feeling... :) and the cake is cooool! ♥
ReplyDeletep.s. i hope i'll join drawing something from the weird list
Haha *yay you noticed the cake* Yeah you definitely should join if you want to! Feel free to join any time you like; even if it is a lot later, no pressure ;)
ReplyDeleteThe other day I was thinking to buy a pretty Lisa Frank colouring book but then I remembered I had to finish some actual book illustration and that the colouring book would only be procrastination. Now I see this post... I should go back to the store ♥ :P
ReplyDeleteHaha maybe it can be your reward in stead of procrastination! That way you have the best of both ;)
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